It's crazy I tell you....

It's official. Christmas is four days away and I've lost my mind. I know I had it yesterday when I left to run to the store... but I don't remember having it after I arrived home...

My nine year old daughter flew in last Wednesday from Colorado Springs and will be staying with us until January 5th and her and her brother and using every minute they have to its fullest. Needless to say this is not condusive to finding a quiet spot in the house to try to attempt to complete my exercises, but at least it makes it interesting!

I loved the visualization of the colors in this exercise. I am a very visual thinker and oftentimes find myself at the bad end of a joke because I can "see" what people are describing in their jokes and it becomes one of those, "Whoa too much information... thanks for the bad visual" moments.

On a scale of one to ten I would rate myself at about a seven overall. Physically I'm comfortable in my skin. I do have COPD at 34 but I am successfully managing it and actually working on improving my lung capacity so that I don't have to learn to live with it, but I can teach it to learn to live with me. I exercise regularly, I am now eating regularly (thanks to my hubby) after dealing with the after-effects and underlying habits of recovering from an eating disorder that effected me in high school, and I am able to get enough sleep every night so that I don't feel like it's another five-hours-of-sleep-for-this-week marathon. Spiritually I am very secure in my beliefs and can find the solstace and comfort that I seek in those beliefs. Psychologically, well right now my autistic son is standing behind me making his sound effects- which generally consist of car sounds, brake sounds, crashing sounds, things blowing up, machine gun sounds and whatever else crosses his mind. Remember, he's autistic and ADHD so it gets very trying sometimes. After the seventh time of asking him to just give me five minutes to focus on this, I turned around just in time to see him body slam an invisibile wrestler into our coffee table. Good thing he knows that's all faked on tv..... So yes, psychologically I am stressed out but I am still in control and I know that there is a light behind every darkness. I also recognize that stress is a normal reaction and that not all stress is bad. Right now I don't feel overwhelmed, just pressed for time a little bit. But I also can recognize the signals my body gives off when I start to feel overwhelmed. That's when I take a minute to step back and just breath, come up with a plan to deal with my issues and then act on it.

-Jen